Intro

I know you know what I'm talking about. I know you've had this feeling too. Like you're in a movie that someone else is watching. You are the protagonist in some comedy, or some drama. Occasionally, you end up in the role as the romantic lead. The movie keeps changing. The audience stays the same. It's the same for all of us.

Your movie has always been a dramedy. A film that's funny, yet sad. You laugh. You cry. You run out of popcorn, the end. There is always some ending, isn't there? There is always some point where one film ends and another begins. No one ever lets you read the script in advance. The audience is always yelling at the screen in the string of movies that are your life, and while you hear the noise, you never listen.

My life was this way. A string of endless movies that would begin and end with no proper flow. My scripts seemed to be being written by a complete moron most of the time. Although the comedic timing was flawless, the heroine in my story never got the plot. Heck, she never even knew what genre of film she was in. My role was much like yours, the lead in some dysfunctional comedy, that had the occasional dramatic twist. I wanted to be in a science fiction thriller. I wanted to be abducted onto the mothership. I wanted to be an episode of the X-Files. I wanted it so bad that I made it happen.

It was simple to do really. To change your life from the unending drib-drab-laugh-cry crap, to something scary and confusing. My life was a movie that you wouldn't go to the theater to see. The kind of movie that you'd watch at home on a rainy afternoon, when you're single and the chores are done. Until the fateful day that it became a summer blockbuster. My life became that life you sit in the theater thanking the Deity of your choice, that it isn't yours. My life went from dramedy to action, all because of a book and a statement.